wowee.
it feels like ages since i've been on here and i felt bad, because i had several messages and people actually missed me. geez. wow. i didn't think i mattered, but i guess i do.
i'm going to write a little update about everything so that some of my new followers can be caught up with my life.
first of all, my name is rachael. i'm fifteen annnnd my tumblr is radicalbatty.tumblr.com. i'm on there a lot more, and i'll probably be more likely to respond on there.
anyways, i used to update a ton about life, but i haven't really done that..for at least a year it feels like.
so for all of you whether you be new to my life or old, here's what you missed last year:
last year was my freshman year and i really didn't have many friends, but i knew the group i wanted to be friends with. i kinda hung around them but we didn't start hanging out until around january/february. i helped backstage for our musical, which was How To Succeed in Business Without Really Trying. It was really great. (I'm also doing practically the same stuff for this year's produciton of Damn Yankees. I don't sing..otherwise i'd be onstage. Ha.) Anyways, those couple of months were really great. Although i did lose a couple friends..for reasons unknown.
March came and we went to the midnight premier of the Hunger Games which really made my friendship with everyone new permanent.
April was interesting..Every year the drama club and speech team has a 'banquet' and we perform and whatnot. I gave my speech..a Humorous Interpretation. That night the only boy i hung out with (He was friends with all girls. Super nice.) sat next to me. And then things got all mushy between us because he fell in love with me that night.
A few days before my birthday all my friends decided that they were going to hook us up. My birthday came and we all hung out at my house. It was really fun.
I was also in a production of James and The Giant Peach around that time. May came and Will(oops. yeah. that's his namee.) and I were sorta together and yeah there's a really cheesy story about our first kiss and then we started dating and summer was the most AMAZING time of my life.
Ask me about it sometime and i'll tell stories.
So moving on, Will and I broke up for a week or two because we were kinda in a funk, and we got back together..but Will being a boy only missed me for my kissing etc.
After we broke up the second time i was sure we would not get back together. My friends were really great about it and stuff..but yeah. Will was better for some reason..and i needed him.
We had an early homecoming. September..22nd? I think? and Will and I had planned to go when we were together but we weren't together at that point..and it was awkward. that night i had a super great plan to get him back and at the end of the night i pulled his tie to me and kissed him. He's at least a foot taller than me. and it was lovely.
And I thought I blew it.
That night later, I was staying at one of my friends' houses and we were speaking. it was nice. Like..he wanted to be 'friends with benefits.' and i did not want my heart broken again.
(I skipped a part. At this point I had been writing Will letters about how i felt because he told me I could use him to get everything out even if we weren't together..it's complicated. people don't really know me that well, not even my friends..but will is just such a good soul that he let me annoy him.)
Later that week i asked if we could talk. We did.
we drove around for a while and then ended up making out. fml.
we couldn't stay away from each other, no matter how hard we tried.
i know it sounds bad since he wanted the 'fwb' but he wouldn't have lied about his feelings...see. he's a pastor's kid. and if his parents found out he hurt me..ooh bad stuff would happen.
i guess third time's a charm though, cause we've been together ever since.
i also got into trouble because i had a secret tumblr. i posted my feelings about people (Without names) but it kinda got spread and people got offended.
throughout the whole year, my dad stopped maybe..ten or fifteen times? some ended quite badly. he is a very angry person because he can't get everything he wants.
Besides dealing with Will, Haters, and my absent dad..I've also had to deal with the constant backstabbing of the equivalent of regina george. that's right. i hope she knows who she is.
she stole several of my old friends and talks major crap..even worse than regina. she also told me that Will was cheating on me with one of my best friends because 'she cared' about me. which is ridiculous..because i know when she's lying and i know that will isn't like that..nor my friend.
the year has just been..really dramatic. and most of it is pointless.
*was.
this year has been off too a great start. On new years, i got my new years kiss and stayed at will's all night.
and for some reason, my dad's acting nicer.
Also, i'm realizing that i am not the only one victimized by the backstabber...and also most people in my class hate her..including her closest 'friends.'
last night i got asked to prom, and that was really adorable.
also today i got my first college mail.
things are looking up, i think.
on the not so great side, most of my friends are seniors. by most..i mean all but..like..two.
that includes will. he wants to go far away for college.
i was perfectly okay with that.
oh yeah, but last year i found out that he's moving to michigan. june first. that means i might not see him for a year...at least. we are going to go long distance though. and i'm pretty sure i might marry that boy..god..
also, one of my close friends wants to go to portland. gahhh
things will be okay, and as long as i keep telling myself that..it'll be..beautiful.